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Karen’s Previous Article

Love, or

Media Life:Dos Juevos by Karen

I fucked up. That last article I wrote? Well, I actually kinda had a boyfriend. He didn’t find the article very amusing. I know, I know, why did I show it to him?  Well, because I made the mistake of telling him that I was writing an article for this website, and being a good boyfriend, he wanted to read it. I thought he would find it amusing. Boy was I wrong.

On the other hand, I’m not sure he really is my boyfriend. I’m a little confused on that. We’re “on hiatus” since I’m in New York getting my masters degree and he’s in Los Angeles working on a TV show.  Look, there it is again – media invading my life.  We’re “on hiatus”? Anyone who works in television knows that oftentimes that’s code for “we’re pretty sure we’re canceling the show.”  I can’t even be broken up with a guy without media encroaching.

Truth be told, I’m a terrible girlfriend.  I’m very self-centered. It’s not that I don’t care about people, because I do. I’m just not that attentive a girlfriend. My mom says I’m independent. My dad says I’m irreverent.  My sister just thinks I have horrible taste in guys.  Most people say that it will be hard for me to find a guy that is “strong

enough” for me.

But this current guy, … well, he’s great.  Everything is there that should be there. But I just don’t feel anything. I stay in this relationship anyway because he’s a good guy and a good friend; although I’ve felt deeper love for other guys, I never felt the connection that I do with this guy. But if this is love, it sure isn’t what I thought it was going to be.

I feel comfortable. He makes me laugh. The sex is great. But…I feel nothing, and I can’t imagine that it’s supposed to be this way. If it is, then I’ll take a pass on the love and marriage and domestic bliss thing, thanks. Yes, I know that the passion wears off, and he and I have been together for three years. But I would rather be alone than have this feeling of nothingness.0

Aren’t you supposed to just know?  Everyone says they just knew.  Come on, how can that be? Please tell me how you just knew because if that’s what I’m waiting for, then perhaps I just haven’t been paying attention. Can I go consult with the writers? What do they have in mind here? Are we supposed to root for Karen and her guy? Can we introduce a new character?  Where’s casting? Let’s have them get going on looking for a new guy – someone cute but not beautiful. Smart, funny - someone worthy  of “I Just Knew,”

Well, I think that’s gonna do it for me this month. Needless to say, I’m not showing Hiatus Boyfriend this one.